Sometimes it's difficult to believe people drawn to drama that the event is as damaging to them as they really speak of it...but it changes when the drama becomes quiet and indifferent. When the 'I can't go on' becomes a 'whats the point trying'... when the caps in writing becomes more formal and impersonal or the tears and silent and for a change they hide them.
It indeed makes the event MORE now to us outside of the mind. When we see someone who never want to shrug the smallest thing off starts trying to numb out and not ever care about issues that had matter... The alarms go off and the height of awareness flares. However, with drama seekers, these few events doesn't always result in something serious but a sudden understand that for a change it really is hurting unlike the past, the true questions of how to move forward or even how to communicate what happened or what one really feels strangles in their throat...and as an outsider initial all we can do is offer silent support and encourage them to talk, to cry and t accept the depths the events.
Posted via LiveJournal app for Android.
Grandma Jill is awesome. I was feeling pretty mopedown about not being able to play a zoomquest with P & L on Tower Heights, and she said I could watch something with her on her room's wall. I said Mom and Mom Sirti said I couldn't play anything, and Grandman Jill said we'd be watching not playing. She picked out The Princess and the Pirate, which she said is a remake of an old 20c non-interact. I prefer interactive stuff but this was pretty good. Lotsa swordfights and funny lines.
I want to make a Rodent of Unusual Size avatar when I play TH again!
* * *
Note: Yep, they remade A Princess Bride. Death is too good for them...
Mirrored from Smudge Marks & Engel Werks.
Been fighting some pretty bad depression this last couple of months. A lot of it revolves around stress over money, or lack there of. But no small part is also due to my allergies and this past winter flu season. The flu shot this year did not help. To fight it, I’ve been nose deep in busy-work.
Currently I’m stalled with SM-EW due to a delay in Sunnyvale sending us our business license. Without that, we can’t get the DBA. And without both of them we can’t set up the bank account. And everything else revolves around getting the bank account. GRRRR! Maybe complaining about it here will mean it’ll show up in the mail today.
I’ve also been busy coloring an older, unpublished project for a new outlet. It’ll be a 4 issue, roughly 12 pages, bi-monthly comic called “To Kill a Dragon” (working title, org. “Hand of the Dragon”). Right now, I’m coloring page 13 of the first issue. Will post some sample pages once I get the re-lettering in. While I still need to rewrite the ending (was unhappy with the first version), all the other art and writing is done. It just needs a little more polishing and some color. Only problem with this is that it’s really beating on my hand. After about an hour, I am really feeling it. This is all being done digitally. I guess me and pure digital art just don’t mix. But I will see this through, one page at a time. I have no idea how good, bad, or indifferent this will do. But if I don’t try something new I can’t move forward. After all, all the old ways and channels are no-longer working. Adapted or die time.
I’m also deep in getting the illos done for the novella I’ll be PODing soon. Hopefully, I’ll have a couple I can post online soon for all to see. I’m nervous and excited about it all at the same time. Nervous mostly because it’s had very few beta readers, and as par typical, they were good with basic edits, but not much useful criticism. I miss Gerald. He’d rip my stories to shreds, making the paper bleed red. I have yet to find a beta reader who would do the same. So, I’m sending this off into the wilds hoping I’ve prepared it for the best that any one person can, praying that others like it as well. After all, I’m pretty fond of Warrior and Keeper at this point.
So where does this leave Ebin & May? Kind of up in the air actually. I need to focus on stuff that has the possibility of making some income. At this point Ebin & May has no chance of ever doing that. I do want to finish it, but if I have to make the choice of working on a project that can bring some much needed income in vs. one that has none, guess which gets pushed tot he bottom of the “to do” pile. There’s a lot more here than I can really go into nor talk about. For now, Ebin & May has to be squeezed in around the edges and that’s the best it’s going to get unless something radically changes.
One of the other ‘projects’ I’ve been trying to work on is getting my bicycle repaired. It seriously needs some TLC, but the money has been lacking and this whole house (including myself) suffers from “we’ll get to it later” syndrome. Today, I finally got off my butt and went down to the hardware store and bought a single inner-tube and a bike pump. It was all I could afford atm. But it will allow me to check that I have the wheel size correct. Maybe next month I’ll have enough to buy a second tube. After that, new road tires (the ones currently on the bike are permanently pancaked on one side), a new chain, headlights (they ticket you mightily if you don’t have them around here come dusk), and a cheep bike rack so that I can use it instead of the van to get groceries and stuff. Should get the seat and shifter looked at, but those are much more low priority things compared to the wheels and chain.
Anyway, that’s all I can really go into at this time. Lots of things happening behind the scene that I can’t talk about, unfortunately. But I am trying to forge ahead.
Maria Beastkin: Wizardly genetic construct/slave who self-emancipated and subsequently became a slave owner herself (slightly less squicky if only because it's Tez.) Determined to achieve immortality by becoming the first beast-kin to bear children.
Andrea Kinkaid: Half-elf ex-slave, formerly owned by Tez, subsequently buying her own freedom and moving on to a career as a master leatherworker (with a nice sideline in kink related gear).
Swan Beastkin: One of Maria’s children, who betrays her mother in an unspecified manner that earns her father Tez’s very determined ire.
The Dragon’s Companion
Teal Luteplayer: Magic using bard left as a sacrifice to a dragon, who subsequently takes her in as first his slave/pet and then later as a very reluctant assistant to his plans to bring peace and security to his domain.
The Red Vixen Adventures
Lady Melanie Lovejoy: Foxen noblevixen, part-time pirate and full time romantic meddler. Former owner of Ali.
Vicountess Sallivera Darktail: Noblevixen survivor of an abusive marriage, who recovers sufficiently from her PTSD to take control of an entire colony world.
Alinadar Waterfamer/Blacksailor: Salli’s devoted bodyguard and lover, formerly a child soldier, pirate, and slave* to both Lady Melanie and Bloody Margo. Equally as adept with weapons and as insane as Lois McMaster Bujold’s Sgt. Bothari, though with slightly better socialization.
Bloody Margo: Greedy and cruel pirate warlord.
Mistress Habebti: Brothel owner on the edge of civilized space.
For Your Safety
Quisling: Cheerful Swedish-Chinese collaborator for the Groupmind’s cause.
Obafemi: Human partner in the team that recruits Nafir. Ends up mind controlled and injured thanks to the baddie’s plot.
* I’m sensing a very unfortunate theme here….
- Sun, 13:06: Time to shower and face the day! Brunch with a new friend, ToyFest, and wolves!
- Sun, 17:00: Toy Fest time!
- Sun, 17:55: Gee! Score from ToyFest. Now to calculate my order. @ramalion http://t.co/jXaFm5b2SU
- Sun, 18:02: So many toys! Lots of neat things at ToyFest.
- Sun, 23:58: Fennec! http://t.co/BYPm2wLo0k
- Mon, 08:19: Sad morning at work. A co-worker lost spouses over the weekend, and other has spouse in ICU for 11 days…
- Mon, 08:27: 21 items on the to-do list for the week! Let's see how many I can hammer out today!
- Mon, 10:33: *shakes head* Whoops - moved money to wrong accounts last week. Fixed now.
- Sun, 13:18: <3
- Sun, 13:46: Quick, someone tell @graveyardgreg! http://t.co/moZNLdqbIP
- Sun, 16:36: Awesome kid is awesome. http://t.co/N8LWOfSMCV
- Sun, 17:05: I wonder if anyone ever started a WordPress with the title, Beware of the Blog. http://t.co/nfrwknsndb
- Sun, 17:11: Looking through old journal entries, finding condolences on someone passing away, who has since themselves passed away. :-`
- Sun, 17:12: Dear last five years: You really sucked.
- Sun, 20:16: RT @muskrat_john: I can't believe it's 7 pm and I'm *still* writing 6 pm on my checks! THANKS, Daylight Saving Time!
- Sun, 21:20: I loved, loved, loved the original COSMOS. I have high hopes for the new one!
- Sun, 21:22: Well no, of course, but @neiltyson is cool, too. :) //RT @DatBirdbrain: it won't be the same without Carl. :(
- Sun, 21:32: RT @scalzi: COSMOS SPOILER: Jupiter? Waaaaaay big.
The obvious biggie is that Suburban Jungle (Rough Housing) is up and running! We've also got a shiny new forum thanks to everyone at Crosstime Café. The story runs on Mondays and Wednesdays, with a quarterly print release (the first full issue should be at AnthroCon)-- and thanks to my Patreon supporters, there will be extra content in the form of an "Ask the Cast" page on the last Friday of every month.
"What Patreon?" You Ask? Funny You Should Mention It!
With a little prodding from Graveyard Greg, Maggie Hogarth, and others, I created a Patreon page, and so far it's been a huge success, for which I'm very grateful! Someone even took a "Commission on Demand" slot, which I didn't actually expect anyone would. :) Good thing I put a limit on those!
The Patreon program has already reached two of its goals, the Ask the Cast page and funding a new compy to replace this dying PC. The next one is the biggie-- funding another comic project that a pal of mine would like to collaborate on but that I just can't afford to do unless it's a paying gig. He's trying to raise the funds on his end, but I told him that if I got funded, I'd do the comic without charging him.
So we'll see if it happens! Please consider adding your support if you'd like to see more comics from your ever-lovin' blue-eyed cartoonist. :)
And, Of Course, FurTheMore!
Come Friday, I will be in Baltimore as one of the Guests of Honor for FurTheMore-- SO jazzed! I'll have "Issue Zero" preview comics c/o the good folks at FurPlanet, I'll be running panels, it's gonna be awesome. :)
So, yeah... big week! I'm very pleased.
Oh, and did I mention I drew Rarity? 'cos I totally drew Rarity. Such a lovely pony! <3
Anyhow, that's it for now! I need to get back to work. Those pages won't ink and color themselves! ...darn it.
- Current Location:The Hobbit Hole
- Current Mood: accomplished
- Current Music:Frozen OST "Let It Go" (in my head)